Wednesday, February 6, 2008

she just drifted away from me....


so, i have nursed both of my children. not because i think everyone should or care how anyone else feeds their child, but because i could and it seemed logical. both of them took formula too, at first to sustain their enormity, and then when it was convenient, (i.e. long car rides to CA). Anna nursed until just over a year. when she stopped it was a natural thing. she just lost interest, enjoyed feeding herself instead, etc. anyway, a couple of months ago i noticed that Madeline was sleeping better at night the times she had a bottle versus nursing. i tried bumping up the time i spent feeding her, but she seemed more content with a bottle. so, i switched her night time feeding to a bottle and she returned to sleeping through the night. this is awesome of course! i am thrilled, really. however, she slowly rejected nursing altogether, steeling her sisters sippy cup at every turn. i gave her more and more bottles, not anticipating this outcome: i'm a little sad! don't get me wrong, i don't feel more bonded to my baby when she's nursing, we still cuddle while she takes a bottle. i just feel sad that yet another milestone for my second child has seemingly blown by unnoticed. she hasn't nursed for 4 days, so we're done. that's the end. she will never nurse again. i feel like soon i'll be packing her up for college. okay, that's extreme, but i look at her and can't believe she is almost 1. she's walking, she has words, teeth, opinions, it feels like she's growing so much faster than Anna. i know this is common for second children, i just wasn't prepared for my feelings. my little baby is more like a (gulp).......toddler! yikes.

6 comments:

Erin said...

Bless you! I felt your sadness! Everything does go by so much faster with #2. And it sucks when you notice it only after the fact! But I'm sure there are so many other joys you get to experience because you have two. So it's worth it.

It was always around this time(when I realized my baby was almost a toddler) that I began to feel ready to have another....so watch out! :)

Tonya said...

are you getting the fever?

I am, but really trying to hold out on it! Mia is turning into a toddler too!

Hope you are all well...

xoxo

Tonya

Leila said...

Holy cow!! Britty you really got to stop pumping those kids out...it feels like even little Maddy is passing my Leila by (not just in the adorable chubby baby weight category). Your babies are growing so fast it almost seems like your youngest might be making her own babies while mine are still in diapers. Well we love you all and hope to see you soon!!

~love said...

oh how i understand this!!

Autumn and Barrett said...

I know what you mean - it's hard to see my babies grow up too. Still, I feel like Maddie will soon be babysitting Laine. Give your babies (they will always be our babies after all) kisses for us!

i'm kelly said...

the second one really does grow so fast. you blink and they are suddenly so old!